|Posted by Admin on June 16, 2013 at 3:10 PM|
For me, the issue with being able to speak begins inside my head. Let me use an example to explain.
My family enjoys playing a game called "Scattergories". In the game each player fills out a category list with answers that begin with the same letter. If no other player matches your answers, you score points. Players determine the letter used by rolling a die with all of the letters on it. Oh, and there's a time limit.
I give myself some credit....I'm pretty good at this game. (Most of the time.) I think it's because I can be creative with my answers and because I have such unique interests that no one else knows about. My weakness, as with everyone else, is the time limit.
Today, however, I discovered a new weakness. Language processing. This frustrated me to the point where I nearly said "just forget it, I can't play". But I didn't want to be left out. So I just played a miserable game. You would think that it would be obvious that I was having some issues when I went from getting LOTS of points to getting one or two. But right from the start of that last round, I knew I was going to struggle. I could SEE the objects in my head. I KNEW what I wanted to write in as my answer, but the words wouldn't come to me. THIS is how it feels when I have trouble speaking.
I really wish that I could have been given some extra time. Or I wish I could have just left and gone home right then and there. But I didn't want to be left out. I wanted so badly to have fun. Yet, I couldn't. I can only imagine the frustration felt daily by those who are completely non-verbal. I've experienced this frustration to a degree, but never fully.