|Posted by Admin on November 19, 2013 at 7:45 PM|
For some reason, no matter how much I try to say that speaking can be physically difficult to do, people don't believe me. So let me try using an example. Not everyone will be able to relate to this, but my hope is that enough people will understand.
Some of you may have played the game "Scattergories" before. If you haven't, run out and buy it or order it so that you can truly understand what this experience is like. Trust me, it's the best example I could ever think of and it's the closest I can come to explaining this situation. Let me explain how this game works:
(From Wikipedia) "The objective of the 2-to-6-player game is to score points by uniquely naming objects within a set of categories, given an initial letter, within a time limit."
So, say that the letter given is the letter "A". The first category of the first set is "Fruit". You would think that it's easy to just say "Apple" and move on. Sometimes it IS that easy, which is why I am able to speak so well sometimes. Other times, it's not quite so simple. (Especially when you need to think of a word that is unique!) Can you think of another fruit that starts with the letter "A"? I hope you've already thought of it, because time's up! By the way, that's just the first category in the set. We haven't even gotten to the next 8 or 9 categories.
If you think this is simple, I urge you to try the game for yourself. It's not as easy as it seems. And if you think it's difficult, then maybe you have a glimpse into my world. It's not that I don't want to speak. It's that I literally cannot. It's not that I don't know what apples are. (By the way, another fruit that starts with the letter "A" is an Apricot.) It's not that I don't know what fruit is, or how to play the game itself. It's that my brain doesn't process it well. And when I'm under that much stress or I feel pressured in some way, I just can't speak.